Listening over and over again to "The Scientist" by Cold Play
I just kind of wish Jim would "realize" he made a mistake not because I want him back but because I want validation that I meant something to him. Almost 9 years and I feel like I was erased so easily as if I held no value whatsoever to him. I know that this is how he thinks of me and it makes me feel so worthless. What had I been doing this whole time? What does it say about me when I've spent nearly a decade of my life with someone and I did not make any sort of positive impact on their life. In my head I kept hearing him say, "I'm done." I wasn't the one to hurt him and I didn't do any wrong towards him and yet I feel as if he was right to do what he did to me. I can't blame anyone for wanting to be happy... but it hurts and I wonder was I so bad that I couldn't make him happy? What's wrong with me that I couldn't do this for him? I know its wrong to think this way but I just can't help it.
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