It hurts.

It hurts to think about jim. He failed me in so many ways as a boyfriend and then as a friend. I don't get how i could be with someone for nearly a decade, share a life and a bed together and mean so little. it sucks that he has a girlfriend already and here i am stuck and emotionally desolate. i'm reaping the consequences of HIS decisions and his emotional recklessness. its not fair. whats worse is at the end of the day i know, that while i'm not "in love" with him, i still love him very much and be there for him if he ever needed me.