Figuring things out. . .

So it is official. He has been with that girl for a while now and hiding it from people for a while. I suppose to make it look like it all just happened "innocently". I hate him! When the distance was growing I confronted it and he said, "You don't understand. The restaurant...blah blah blah". It's like the fucking asshole took me for a ride and left me in the middle of nowhere, like out in the desert but then goes...oh here's a bottle of water and some food. I've realized its always been that way with him. Giving me less than what he can give and telling me to settle for it because it's better than nothing-that I should be grateful for it. I've always felt bad and like an ingrate because it is true, that it is better than nothing but I've realized how wrong it was for him to intentionally give me less than he could and that I've NEVER had to settle for that. It's a hard lesson learned.