sometimes. . .

sometimes when you get EXACTLY what you want you find out it's NOT really want you want. It's okay I know this will be good for me.

in my place

in my place, in my place. . .
were lines i couldn't change.

i was lost,

crossed lines i shouldn't have crossed.

i was scared, i was scared. . .
tired and unprepared.

But i'll wait for IT.

Another bad night

i hate nights like this because it never makes sense. why do i stay up listening to coldplay songs??? WTF?!! i really need to stop being so emo...ugghh i'm disgusted with myself. it kind of dawned on me that i really do blame myself for the breakup. I feel like he did everything for me and i contributed absolutely nothing, hence the ease in which he left.

* fyi: i'm not worth it and undeserving of the time and effort you're putting in. i'm sorry.

Love?

Love doesn’t flee. Love isn’t jealous. Love doesn’t cheat. Love isn’t cruel. Love doesn’t make you feel bad about yourself, or insecure about your future.

Love endures.

Dear Blog

Please help me. I have been incredibly sad as of late. What should I do? Why do I miss him? Why am I spending nights crying into a pillow? Why do i feel so alone? Why am i isolating myself???

I love the way you lie. . .

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn? But that's alright because I like the way it hurts. . . Just gonna stand there and hear me cry? But that's alright because I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie. . .

I learned something today. . .

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

just one of them days.

I feel real tired but restless, lonely but needing time to be by myself. I dunno but I've been all sad today. I guess it's okay since I figure this is what I need. NEED - I have to remember that. I need to be able to be by myself and not depend on another emotionally. I need to reach my personal goals before I can even begin to address this loneliness issue =( I wish things were more simple. I just hope that I come out okay at the end of all this. I really hope that whoever I'm looking for out there would be well worth it.