Post Breakup: Day 5

I wonder what kind of day today will be? Yesterday I just couldn't stop crying. I don't want to cry today. At least today I got up. . .I wanted to sleep, sleep, sleep everything away. Like maybe if I sleep long enough when I wake up it wouldn't be real, or maybe I just don't want to wake up. I feel like there is Nothing to look forward to. We're trying to be friends and I've seen him practically every day since, but I miss him?? Just kissing him or him kissing me on the forehead saying "i love you." Just that warm comfort. The feeling of "coming" home when I was with him- secure and protected. Safe. I never thought this would happen to us, but then again maybe i should have seen it. This dull pain in my chest just won't go away!! go AWAY!! go AWay!!

I think it's just the saddest thing when the connection between two people gets lost. He says the romance died, but I feel like he let it happen. He stopped communicating, then he stopped trying and it just stopped. In truth, things have been over for a while. It's easy to say something is gone when you just let it go. It's easy to say it when you've found other things to occupy your time. How do people just let go of others so easily?

The Break Up

January 22, 2009 - the worst day of my life =(

My boyfriend of over 8 years just broke up with me and now I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do with myself. As much as I wish he would stay with me, I KNOW it's not really what would be the best situation for me. He was my world for much of my adult life. Everyday I don't even want to get up in the morning. I don't want to see a new day without him. When will the pain stop?