Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Been a while...

it's been years since my last post. Just sitting here watching rom-com movies and thinking, "damn, I want to be in love and all that shit." Geez...I thought I'd have outgrown this by now.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

--Marilyn Monroe

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

Monday, December 13, 2010

27 life lessons learned by age 27

1. Sometimes doing the "Right" thing is usually more difficult to do than the alternative; requires a bit of sacrifice on your part, and generally goes unappreciated.

2. REAL friends are hard to find so hang on to them. They're the ones who you may not have seen for months or even YEARS, but when shit hits the fan they're right there holding your hand.

3. Despite what others may claim, nobody's going to love you more than yourself and no one's going to love you if you don't love yourself first.

3. In relationships: Love alone is NOT nearly enough.

4. Everything is a CHOICE...it's just that sometimes you won't like the choices you are given.

5. It's a lie. . Time doesn't heal anything! It's what you do with that time.

6. Worrying is useless unless it motivates you to action.

7. Likewise, complaining and crying gets you nowhere.

8. Drunken nights are great. . .but some of the worst moments of my life have been when I woke up the next day hung over and knowing that I still need to face whatever I was trying to escape via 8 patron shots and 3 vodka tonics.

9. Be careful who you trust...especially guys who lack the ability to be discrete.

10. Surround yourself with people who make you laugh.

11. What you want and what you need are more often than not, completely different things.

12. Don't put your life on hold for anyone.

13. The "right time"/"perfect moment" doesn't exist.

14. Give everything you do your absolute best, otherwise why do it at all?

15. WANT more. HOPE for more. EXPECT more. ASK for more.

16. AND don't ever take a single thing for granted.

17. Money makes things easy but its not everything.

18. Find that reason to get up for every morning because it makes life feel less empty.

19. There are plenty of fish in the sea, but most of the fish suck.

20. Don’t ignore issues that need to be addressed or tended to. It allows them time to compound and become much worse.

21. People LOVE and are drawn to you when you're at your best but not so much when you're a mess and look it.

22. Getting your heart broken- by friends, lovers, family, just plain sucks. But I would rather have my heart broken a million times by taking a chance in looking for something more.

23. Sometimes it's the people we least expect that will pull through for us when no one else will.

24. Wallowing in self-pity is OK...just don't get stuck there.

25. When your significant other fails you, disrespects you, lies or makes you feel bad about yourself don't make excuses for them.

26. Everyone likes "nice" people but you don't get anywhere by being nice. Being selfish doesn't always mean you're a bad person.

27. Learn to laugh at yourself because sometimes it's the only thing you can do to keep yourself sane.

** People will forget what you said, and people will forget what you did; but they will never forget how you made them feel.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Dear Life,

Please help me catch a break. Please help me find stability and happiness. What can I do to help myself? What am i supposed to do now?

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Falling Slowly, ONCE

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Love?

To love is a choice. It is a commitment. It is not something you can turn on and off. If someone has told you they "fell out of love", they probably never really, truly loved you to begin with. Sometimes we "fall out of love" when it gets too hard for us to deal with making the relationship work.

There were days when I looked at Jim and wondered..."Is this it? Is this enough?" and days where I felt like the luckiest girl in the world.

That is the ebb and flow of love. Underneath it all, was totally attached to this person and I loved him unconditionally. This is hard for many people to accept - that love doesn't always feel good. Sometimes love can be crappy, but you forge through it. But, you do need both partners (whether lovers or family or whomever) to have made the CHOICE to continue to plow through it and make the love work.

Monday, October 4, 2010